Suffering Poem by Devon Sherman

I took it out,
Looked at it,
I couldn't help,
But shed a tear.
Was I really going to do this?
Was I really going to end it all?
Would there be no more pain?
No more suffering?
I stared at it,
Hours,
And hours went by.

I finally get close to it,
I put it near my wrist,
Am I really going to do it?
I shed a tear,
While thinking of the people,
Who I love.
Nobody could stop me,
Only I could.

I looked into the mirror,
I saw a lost soul.
I didn't see any hope,
I didn't see any love.
I put it closer to my wrist,
I don't know what would happen,
I don't know how it would feel.
Should I do it?

I shed another tear,
I throw the blade away,
I can't stop crying,
And crying.
Nobody would help me,
Nobody saw what just happened,
Nobody knows what I did.
Did I even do it?