Sugar Blood Poem by G J Salgado

I let you pull my strings
I allowed you to cut my wings
It's like I was never here
I never let myself feel the fear
It's like I didn't exist
I never let myself quit
It was embedded within
It was marked in my skin
I've already drowned in the flood
It consumes my blood
It has already happened before
What was it all for
It was nothing that ever happened before

Through this war I've struggled with who I am
The one who sits quiet or finally takes a stand
She's the one who doesn't say a word
Through everything that she's heard
Feeling the evil and the pain face to face
Always drifting from place to place
A wild creature who is never free
Misunderstood and the one who couldn't be
Will you ever understand; can you see
Will it ever be just about me
My blood, sweat, and tears are their favorite disease
It doesn't grow but I'll always plant the seeds
Flowers sent in my name
Flowers placed upon my grave
Such a bitter taste it leaves
In the mouths of the trees
As they sway in the wind
I never found that one true friend

It was everything that already happened before
What was it all for
It was nothing that didn't already happen before

They drowned me in the flood
They consumed my blood
They consumed me in the blood
They drained my blood
They consumed the flood
They drowned me in the blood
They consumed me in the flood

They came just as easily as they went
They went just as easily as they came
Will they ever stay
Will they have any shame

I ate the bullets when they tried to eliminate me
I came back when they tried to annihilate me

I stood up without saying a word
Maybe now I'll be heard
Maybe now they'll finally understand
Now that I've made my final stand