Suicide Note Poem by Singer Joy

*I feel that people may misinterpret this poem; This is not my own personal struggle, and does not represent the way I feel. This is merely a poetic parody of an actual suicide note. Most actual poems about suicide aggravate me, and I find them pathetic and stupid. I apologize if any of you felt the same way about this work.*

It's not often that I find myself at a loss
for words.

And yet.

There is a profoundity you impress upon me-
A silence-
That I can't escape.

It's really hard to plainly express things to you
sometimes.

And yet.

I find myself lost in your eyes when you're not even
Anywhere.
No- I can't escape.

I am ashamed that I'm all agog over just
a guy.

And yet.

I can't hide my feelings very well from you or from
Anyone.
I just can't escape.

I don't think you realize how much you play on my
feelings.

And yet.

We play a deadly game of cat-and-mouse, you and I-
Don't you think? -
That I can't escape.

You upset me so much sometimes that I could go
Crazy.

And yet.

I want to keep you the way you are. I'll lose myself
If it helps.
I'll escape for you.