Tears Of Blood Poem by sandy nobody

i lie in my bed every night
i cannot sleep
for there is too much pain
i can only weep

tears streaming down my face
nothing left good
tears pouring from my eyes
tears of my blood

laying in my bed alone
trying to decide
holding a gun
how i want to die

should i blow off my ugly face
so noone will ever see
should shoot my brains out
end all thoughts from me

should i shoot my heart out
its already dead
you made sure of that
with all that you said