Terminally Loved Poem by Wynona Caszatt

I remember gently running my fingers over your side in comfort.. What brought you comfort brought me to tears. The detailed texture of your ribcage through your gentle skin... Your disease effected me.. It brought me to my knees. I hid it from you because you needed to not worry about me.. Your mind had enough worry. Your hair once so soft and thick.. Had become so brittle and thinned. Eyes filled once with so much life and joy replaced with pain and sorrow. Your last breaths filled with wimpers and cries..Where there was once luaghter and breathless joys. Where you once talked about your disease.. Your disease now talked for you. Where we once stayed up talking about what we where going to do as we got older it was replaced with talking about how i needed to prepare myself without you. People talk about heartbreak.. But what they speak of is so dulled down. I held you in my arms as your soul let go of this world.. I screamed like you could hear me to just stay a little longer.. But you where already gone.. And in that moment my heart shattered.. The people around me moved... While i like you became frozen too. But im still alive.. And i could not stay frozen forever.. I had to move forward with memories made without you. But are they truly.. Without you. Like our son says.. You never left because you are in our hearts. Just like we are forever in yours.. Wherever you may be.. But when you return to get me when my time has come i know you will share the joys of the stars and the excitement as you grasp my hand to fallow along.. And on our way i will share all the amazing things our kids and i have done.. And you will look back and say i know.. Because i know no matter how far you may go you are always watching over us.. Until we meet again.. I will make memoirs to share with you when my time too comes to an end.