The Almost Mistake Poem by Lauren LMT

Consumed by rage and depression.
Should I go to a therapy session?
No, its stupid, they will only guess. 
Nobody ever understands my distress. 

I lay in my bed wondering what to do.
If my best friend only knew!
I can't tell her, she'll just worried.
My world will look dark and blurry. 

I guess it's worth a try... 
I don't want to be the bad guy!
It might help, I mean who knows.
She could help me weight the cons and the pros. 

It's hard to tell why I am so shy. 
Oh wait, I want to die. 
I take a deep breath and tell her the whole story. 
All she says is at least there's not a gun in my inventory. 

I start to laugh then I cry. 
I just want this sad time to go by.
It's not worth it she says aloud. 
Do you not know? You make me proud!

You're funny and pretty and sweet.
Well, I think to myself, I have ugly feet!
believe in yourself it might help.
Believe in what? ! I yelp. 

I want her to leave me alone. 
She can't stop me when I'm on my own. 
I run away and hide in my bed.
I don't think there's anything else I could have said. 

I take a knife from the drawer.
Sit in my room on the floor. 
I text my goodbye to my best friend.
Once I do this, I hope she will mend. 

The knife is at my throat I get a reply. 
If you go down, so will I!
I'm shocked and begin to bawl. 
She's too strong. She couldn't fall. 

I don't know what to say so I don't reply. 
I don't understand. I don't know why. 
Seconds turn to minutes and to hours. 
I shake and sweat, I begin to cower. 

The phone rings should I answer it?
What the hell, I've already commit!
It's my best friend.. Oh joy
She sounds worried. It's just a ploy!

She says I'm special and she'll help me through it. 
Apparently, have a strong spirit!
All I say is okay...
I guess I could stay. 

She hangs up the phone, then I
All I can think is why oh why?
I cant do it now, she cares to much
She knew I just needed a crutch. 

So this is my thanks to you. 
For noticing when I was blue. 
If you hadn't I wouldn't be alive. 
Because of you I now thrive. 

I can never repay you for helping me.
With this can you agree?
My walls you broke through. 
Thank you thank you thank you.