The Decision Poem by eboni paul

I want to hold her close in my arms
Invite her into my warm sheets and shelter her when it storms
I want to take her out the dating game
And give her my last name
For she captivated my heart
And unconsciously lock it away from the start
For thee to hold my heart in possession
Causes me to have involuntary obsession
But I have locked away my vulnerability
And impaired my capability
Of telling you how I really feel
Which causes my feelings to intensify and build
Forcing me to question if what am feeling is real
What I mostly regret
Is not telling you what’s on my chest
Sometimes I feel like I am going to hold this to death
I have two options be brave
Or keep this embedded in my humanly grave
Even though being brave is something I sadly lack
I tired of these feeling continuing to stack
As time goes on it increases the stake
And demands me to acknowledge the decision I must make