The Devil Gets His Prize Poem by Darren Crozier

The Devil Gets His Prize



I've been faking laughter, faking joy,
Coasting through emotions since I was a boy,
But the truth, I feel nothing, no thoughts in my head,
My insides are empty.. No soul, I'm dead!

The night draws closer, a dream not to wake,
A few extra pills, no more faces to fake,
the Lord didn't complete me, left a void instead,
can't go on faking so through hell I will tread,

I have six in me now, the recommended is three,
Longing for darkness, to come and awaken me,
at least there's no pain, kind of hoped it would come,
But maybe this wasn't wise, this choice that I've done.

The solution to my affliction will put me in a grave!
It doesn't matter now, my life can't be saved
But what if they don't find me, I didn't leave a note!
God this is hurting now, It slowly burns my throat;

The rooms getting smaller, I can feel it closing in!
My eyes are getting weary, my blood starts to thin,
Almost over now... death will take the win
Once I am gone, this shell I'll give to him

POET'S NOTES ABOUT THE POEM
In late 2002 I was working for a man named Larry De-Corfield, we became close and as an older man I learnt much from his teachings about life.
There were not many people who could say they were close to him as the man had so many walls but Mike Osborneand myself really got to know him...
Larry had a lot of pain inside him and a lot of demons too. He lost his children in a bitter divorce and as his wife left him, the drink slowly took him...
Larry always had the strangest laugh, even to this day we all remember it with fondness as that long drawn out laugh became somewhat his trademark.
The only problem was that under that laugh lay a man in pure termoil,
none of us saw it coming and we were all shocked to find out he took an overdose!
His mother who was 91 at the time went to see him in the hospital, the rest of us lay in wait, to find out the results...
We were told that he was going to pull through, and a couple of days later he was sat up in the hospital bed smiling, and saying how sorry he was, and how happy he was to be alive...
The next day he died...
I think his body just gave up, the death of larry still hurts us all to this day, and he will never be forgotton.
I wrote this poem in tribute to the friend I lost, and to the pain he must have gone through.....R.I.P my old friend... we miss you x
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