The Enigma Of Darkness Poem by arsmitha khanna

The Enigma Of Darkness...

All alone in a cal-de-sac I stand,
Gawking vacuously at the twinkling diamonds
Scattered all through the endless sky;
Lacking even the sole company of my shadow-
That had faded away -
Amidst the sickening darkness around me;
…There my mind twirling and heart sinking'
I stand.. I stand.. Curbed by-
The enigma of my life's darkness;

Memories…hard, grueling memories pile up my head,
Not scorched away even by the perilous vice fire; While -
Seconds turn to minutes…
And minutes to hours….
Yet my thoughts toil… amongst the-
Worst pasts never be healed or rebuilt,
Even there I search for you…
Yearning to feel your breath,
Desiring to cuddle as the -
Melancholic emotions flow down my cheeks,
Flaying every bit of my conscience,
Tearing me apart,
So arduous…that I walk astray,
Like a string less kite,
Like a wingless bird;
Drowned in its murky depths -
Of the enigma of my life's darkness…

Years pass by… yet -
I remain a slave to all my malevolent pasts,
Not knowing, whether to die:
Of awful thirst…..
Or drown beneath the waves;
Only tears and darkness resolve to stay,
Happiness unequivocally forgotten,
Guiltless laughter vanished in stages;
Painful memories shield my view,
Preventing my every step ahead;
And slowly I too resolve…..
To embrace -
The Enigma Of My Life's Darkness with peace…
For life is all about acceptance! ! ! 
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