The Past That Remains Poem by Villie Beebs

Years have gone by and I still picture your face
The way your smile rests and falls so perfectly into place
The love I remember I have not found again
My search has been endless, it seems it cannot be found
It is left with the precious memories that I keep laying around
Even though you have hurt me, and there is no reason to believe
It is still for this love, I still mourn for it and grieve
Even though I know that we will just never be
I can't seem to get rid of it, from your love I cannot break free

Memories inflict pain everywhere I go
Punching me and kicking me, from my head to my toes
Like a haunting aberigian, you try to convey the past to make me see
Such haunting images I still allow to affect me
You can return and return, time after time, back to me again
I continue this one sided love affair that you won't allow me to end
You dangle my heart and you won't allow it to mend
You tangle my mind and won't allow my thoughts to bend
Away from centering and revolving around you
I can't find the strength to prevent you from doing what you do
I can't shatter your memories or let go of this love
Everytime I pull away, you push and you shove

My emotions stagger around until they crumble and break
There is still so much of me that you continue to take
I abuse myself from giving you all my heart's control
It is a addiction that I am burden with deep into my soul

Until I am with you again, I give thee this token
These parts of my soul so tortured and broken
It will not be healed until I am in your arms again
It is this abuse I continue, that doesn't allow my heart to mend
To not love you is to finally accept the death of me
Oh won't you come back, and set my heart free
Until then my love, I will be imprisoned indefinetly
Bathing, feeling elated, in the memories of you
Drowning, falling, into this whirlwind so blue
Suddenly I see a bottle floating by, it is filled with memories so preserved and divine
Still waiting for you to retrieve it, the past remains inside