Things I Must Say Poem by chelsi Ruffing

I guess the truth must come out sooner or later
To my-self I feel like a traitor
Letting my-self play your little game
Putting me in so much misery and shame
I don't understand how you could be so mean
Taking a break I have to redeem
In you, in us I had so much belief
Ending it and walking away was such a relief
You were not like you once appeared
In you I cowered to, of you I feared
Getting slapped made it hard to think
So many tears to scared to blink
Baby I love was all a lie
I don't get why you were able to cry
Giving you everything even my heart
Like everyone else you tore it apart
You told me you would never do it again just wait and see
But because of you I lost sight of me
Making up so many rules and more
Never letting out, blocking the door
Until I ended it and started all new
Having no idea what you put me through
At one time I truly did care
Yet you made everything so unfair
The same thing over and over you would recite
Everything always ending in another fight
Out of sight but the image aalways in mind
What you took from me I'll never find
All the things I've ever wanted to say
There wouldn't be enough time in a day
scars so deep from all the pain
I almost lost in and went insane
I'm gone I just coudn't take anymore
I'll never forget when I walked out the door