This Heart's Endurance Poem by James Darwin Smith II

Upon this pain's existence
I carry this burden alone
Digging deep within
Fighting it all away



So much pain I must say
Doing the best to keep it all inside
Trying hard to always be brave
So I can face another hardened day



Upon this pain's journey
I walk in a recluse path of my own
Never was this my own choice
But it's something I must deal with



I have dreamt so many times
Even now dreaming dreams abode
Residence of a newer vision
Being brave and making more decisions
Finding out if I want to truly be alone



So much pain and distrust
Flashing foundations of temporary luck
In touch, out of touch
Sucked into a vortex of confusion
Turning into a myriad of shadowy disillusion



Distant memories
Mirages they are
The best reserved for the worst
But here I am fighting
Doing all the best to stay strong



Upon this pain's existence
Is a journey yet to be foretold
Never want my worst for anyone
Only the best I could ever give and more



Will you be the judge of me?
Even after I get back up from a long fall?



Even at my worst I know
That someday there will be something special
If I did not think and feel this
I would have been dead a long time ago



Upon this pain
Everything remains
I will always be strong
No matter what comes this way



Never underestimate this heart's endurance
that is all