Three Weeks Since A Single Word Poem by Kimberly Santistevan

It's been three weeks
Since I have written anything,
I couldn't pick up a pen
My mind has been running wild
The words have not come to me
In the right way.

So much has happened in my life
I think I've finally given up
I've pretended to smile
Hoping things will get better
I've told myself not to worry
When I have been any way.

It feels like my life has been
Slowly falling apart
I don't have the same family anymore
There's been so much yelling and crying
Tears followed by more tears.

Everyone expects me to choose a side
Like it's some kind of game
They don't care about what I feel
I love my dad
I love my mom
They are my parents
I don't want to choose a side
I'm still stuck in the middle
Right in between these two people
I love so much.

My mind has been somewhere else
Wanting to leave this place
I can't be strong
I let myself down
I keep my head to the ground
I can't get up.

I think I'm emotionally depressed
I can't look in the mirror and be happy anymore
I can no longer promise myself
Things will work out in its own way
My life has been going in all
The wrong directions
I don't know which way to go
Hoping and praying that
Divorce won't solve this family problem.