To Choose Unhappiness..... Poem by RIC BASTASA

it is complicated, i must admit.
alright, i must admit, for it is true
deep from the heart of me,
i like you, alright it is not that much
i cannot say i love you

there is a time of indecision. And honesty.
like to have you with me, in a room for a night.
but to live with you is a no no a cannot be.

alright, i may like you forever, but i cannot love
you this moment. i like to kiss you and hug you and
make love with you.

but it is not that easy. i have a face. and this body.
i know what shame is. The fall of almost everyone.
thrones broken. Lives falling apart, homes broken.

lives shaken. Despair and hope combined. Another
tragedy strikes the home. Leaving and leaving and
with no apparent homecoming.

i decide not to touch you. I am strong. I have an
A for restraint. I am cool and i am not just a
hormone dose.

I am a person and i choose. I choose integrity.
Unhappiness.Silence and strong suffering.