To End It All Poem by Trevor McLeod

To End It All
Do I really want to do that
to end this pain
to be free of this life
to escape this curse

Or do I remain
struggling each day
to find a reason to smile
to laugh
to breath in each painful moment

Why should I live
I seem to only cause pain
I have made children cringe
I have made mistakes
seen innocence fall

Why shouldn't I live
I have helped people
Made children laugh
protected those in need
supported those who need me

This choice cannot be made lightly
to end my life
I might cause pain
to those who care
but those who seek to harm
would rejoice

Would anyone care
would tears be shed
over me
would I be missed as a person
or as a tool

Eaither way I will inflict pain
if I live
those who want me gone
will be pained
If I die
those who wanted me to live
would be hurt

I guess it comes a head
to flip a coin
Heads I live
Tails I die

The knife is ready
I see it gleaming
the light reflected
I take a breath

The coin sails in the air
one flip then another
I catch it as it falls
I hold it in my hand
I fear to open my fingers

Heads I live
Tails I die
I open my hand