U Scream At Me With Your Silence Poem by BEAU GOLDEN

I never thought in my whole life
i would begin to hate the next day
And the next one
And the next one
And the next one

I cannot bear to sleep
I cannot bear to eat
I cannot bear to be awake
10 years of daily me
10 years of daily you
You just looked at me and called me a one night stand that never ended
You had my child and say you never trusted me
you gave me your time, your love, your body

Now you scream at me with your silence
You scream at me with your silence
Echoing the trite statements below
'i was never right for him'
'he deserves better'
'maybe my heart is black'
'he's a really great guy'
'theres something wrong with me'
I live each day in complete and total hell
I cant even function when i ought to sell
Gold, silver, platinum shoes
I cant win I can only lose


U set me up long ago
Decided to mess me up nice and slow?
Took u out for ice cream then to a show
When did u decide to go?

I sink into the abyss
Hating the stanza above
Hating every waking moment
USCREAM EVERY DAY WITH YOUR SILENCE
U scream at me with your silence

Today another man massaged you and you paid him
You even came and told me it felt great
you will NOT draw out my aggression~NO
SCREW U BEAU U ARE MY SERVANT
SCREW U BEAU U R MY SERVANT
U R LOWER THAN THAT

Into the abyss deeper and deeper
As she screams at me constantly nonstop
shrilly at the top of her lungs
With her avoidance and her silence
You don't want to be me today

jon lennon in the background sings 'Yesterday'
I should be so lucky....

Beau Golden