Uncharacteristic Hate! Poem by Becky Ginn

I can't put into words how I feel,
Can't even begin where to start,
I feel so broken and abused,
A lost child with a broken heart,

I hate these scars of mine,
The ones that adore my skin,
To that or today's long regret,
Of the pain I can't shield within,

I hate looking at myself anymore,
As I down more pills to get away,
I hate the way my body looks
Not eating to try and fade away,

The hate within is unexplainable,
As it haunts me through everyday,
I'm scared to wake up tomorrow,
Afraid to hurt myself yet another day,

I don't want to be like this anymore,
I'm afraid to be myself, to live free,
All I want is to get away from this hate,
This hate that lies deep within me....