Untitled Poem 1 Poem by Ricky Lewis

Why is this world so unforgiving?
I am a single entity living in a shell
Why should I go on living
Thereby worsening the hell?
What’s going to happen when the rope snaps?
The love and the sanity begins to collapse

My family is past, gone so fast
My friends gone away, nothing left to say
My enemies near, looking for the kill
But if I can’t have my life than no one will

Subconscious is warping unconscious
I see myself in the dark
A reflection of a day so bland
I should have looked the other way
Yet I took death’s hand

Now my life, cold and broken
I can see that I’m dead
These horrific sights
Forever wander in my head
And I cry out in vain
This halo and these new wings
Are bringing me disdain

I can see them all
The ones who hated me
Every nemesis,
Every enemy, I can see
My casket opened, the tears flow
They always despised me,
But how could I know?

Family, together again
Mother and father, loving once more
They say their final amends
Before exiting the morgue
Friends, reminisce our times
Both good and evil
Looking at their weary faces
The whole world has become dismal

Now my life, cold and broken
I can see that I’m dead
These horrific sights
Forever wander in my head
And I cry out in vain
This halo and these new wings
Are bringing me disdain

How I long to go back…