Unwanted And Unworthy To My Mother Dearest Poem by Suicidal Happiness

So unwanted and unworthy
You can lie if you want to but you don’t want me
You look so cold and you look so dead
The last time you looked at me that is what you said
There is the hatred that boils and kills my soul
That is probably why I look so cold
Anger is the only thing I feel when you’re around
I’m never up I’m always down
But what can I say to you really at all
‘Hey Mother dearest, please watch me fall’?
Although I know that you will never love me as much I try
And I will never get your approval though I don’t know why
I feel that I need you to abuse me to be ok
That way I can save my pain for a rainy day
I feel so useless and I don’t know what to do
But as I hate you mother dearest I do love you to.