Wandering Poem by Linda Engwall

My mind is wandering tonight
Wondering
How to jump start
My engine

Not content to be
Oh so blah
Knowing we are not meant
To stagnate as humans

Where is the balance
How much do we push ourselves

The days are move through so fast
I don’t have time to think
But tonight I wonder
What is it all suppose to mean

Mostly I wish I didn’t have to contemplate any of this
I had hoped at this stage in my life
It would become easier somehow

Not a struggle or a tugging at me
To figure out this balance I need

I guess I could just let it go
Drown myself in something so I wont have this
Nagging feeling I am suppose to do better than this

Somehow stuck yet not really
Cause there is something deep inside
That calls me to step up
Be present
Do something

I really just wish
I understood finally
What that was to be
For me and not just for you