Want It Back Poem by Nassy Fesharaki

Want it back

Want to do to you what
-want someone do, apply
-to me since is enough
-uselessness, worthlessness!

Damn is life, which is mine!

I pray someone comes with
-some gun or bomb, blast
-into side of my care
-where I sit and drive!

By one, two…I am gone!

Want to do to you what
-I pray to happen to myself!

What is use of being a learned,
-when the least aware is most blissed
-in the cave of darkness
-no sun and no desert
-no beach and no ocean
- no cloud to have rain
-cause snow or thunder
-no ship, man, nor mammal
-will be caught in whirlpool
-of storm, tsunami or its waves!

Was happy when as child was actor
-boy, but girl, …Roghayyeh…

Was great to hear lead actor
-Imam or one of his brothers
-whisper in a low voice:
- "This boy is too heavy! "

Then I lived in a village
-around me were farmers
-and shepherds
-none knew much about
-mullah-made Imams and prophets!

No one had camera
-roll of film, digital
-speaker, recorder
-movie or cinema.

Everything was simple
-and people unaware
-that life was a bliss.

I miss that.
I miss that.
I miss that.

Want it back!
Want it back!
Want it back!

Neither want knowledge nor
-feel proud of my awareness
-obtained by seeing and study
-in the labs of science, observed.

Since love you very much
-wish for you exactly
-what I want to have, gain
-surely by a shock and in sudden
-in snap, as is said, of "Big Bang! "

What the hell is knowledge
-but killer pain and burden?
-Look at shit in White House
-huge ass, a donkey, but rider.
-I rather being dead in grave
-than living a life with such a shit!

Want my birthday present
-to come as a bullet from a gun!

Need relief from shame
Need relief from shame
Need relief from shame
Need relief with an end!