What Am I Doing Here? Poem by sam gale

My mind is painfully cracking,
as I stalk the night sky.
My heart is slowly sinking,
as I plead and question "why? "
My reality is quickly vanishing,
as I carelessly scream and cry
but what am I doing here
if all I do is live a lie?

I wonder a lonely road,
whilst I'm lost here on my own.
I stare cowardly at a light,
whilst darkness turns it to stone.
I glare curiously at a life,
that I've been living here alone
but what am I doing here
when I've ignored all I've been shown?

When life loses it's reason
and death seems so bright
I'm confused without devotion
but it couldn't feel more right

I don't know where I'm going
or who I'm going to be
I don't know what I want
or why I don't just leave
I feel lost in this world
Like I'm lost out at sea


Looking around all I see is darkness
I want to break free
I've lost my kindness
Looking around all I see is pain
It can't be right
I'm soaked from the same
I don't know why.

Looking inside all I feel is numb
I just want to heal
before I have to run
looking inside all I feel is lost
this cannot be real
my existence is a wasted cost
but I'm "fine" how can you deny?

I hide a secret so dark
I live a lie
I have no where to go
and I don't know why
It wont be too long
just a matter of time
If I keep on burning
I'm sure I will shine.

Again I ask
"what am I doing here? "
behind this concrete mask
the end is near.