Why? Poem by black heart

Why do I even bother to try any more?
If I know everything I do is never good enough in your eyes.
Why can't I stop trying to make you proud of me?
If I know you'll never be.
Why do you I keep trying to make you understand who I am?
If I know you won't and I'll just end up hurt.
Why do I keep trying to make you happy?
If I know this is impossible for me to do.
Why must I keep trying to be something I'm not?
If I know even then I'm still not who you want me to be.
Why do I keep striving for your love and attention?
If I know I'll never get it from you.
Why do I keep asking for your approval on everything?
If I know you don't agree with anything I say.
Why do I stay up crying some nights?
If I know you won't hear me and even if you did you would ignore me.
Why do I cause myself the pain of trying to please you?
If I know that anything I do will never please you.

I'm sorry if everything I do is just one disappointment after another.
I'm sorry that my best isn't good enough to make you happy.
I'm sorry that I'm not the person you wish I was.
But is it too much to ask that you just let me be myself?
Even though I'm not perfect can't you look past that and love me for me?
Because no matter how hard I try I can't change who I am.
But if I could I would just to see you smile at me.