Why Did I Wake Up? Poem by Scarlet .....

I lay here crying
once again
wishing I was dying
my mind has finally gave in
I cried for hours
then my body finally shut down
i slept for hours
my mind went numb
oh how peaceful it was
then I woke up
oh how I wish I never had
for it was the first time in months
my mind was clear
no nightmares
no worries
no darkness
just a night of sweet nothings
oh how I wish I could stay here forever
in that frozen state
of nothingness