Why Do I Feel So Angry Poem by Joyleen Heneker

Why do I feel so angry
And hurting deep inside
Why do the words I speak
Have no meaning to what I say

Why does my heart ache so mych
That all I feel is fury
Why does it take so long to heal
The damage that has been done
Why do I hold a grudge
And never let things go

Why does my head say one thing?
And my heart says another
Which one do I listen to?
Which one is the right one?
The one to which I stand by?
Am I worth the trying?
Or am I stuck inside
Am I driving myself crazy?
Im pushing every one aside
Why do I cry at night
Why cant I put my head to rest
And stop the bleeding
Why do things roll continuous inside
With out me even blinking
Why am I an idiot for always bloody trying
To scared to die
Yet I try and lay a blade against my skin
Why do I try, cos I can’t run and hide?
Or am I to weak inside
Why cant I face all my fears
Instead inside im crying
Why is recovery so hard it hurts
Why are my emotions so ever so strong
I cant control all the things that are wrong
Why cant I just talk all the things out
And hide them away
Let me get on with my life
Let me walk away
And leave this behind