Why God...Why? Poem by Jonathan Sud

I'm asking for this one time,
That God gives me a break in life,
But my pleads are unanswered.

I walk home one day after work,
Tired and exhausted I was,
The rain and wind slapping my face,

I go to visit my perfect girlfriend.
The only person I have in my life.
The only one who truly understands me.

I see a strangers vehicle parked in her driveway,
and I try not to think the unbearable.
Please oh please God,
not the unbearable.

The door is open,
as if it were welcoming me in,
I hear sounds of impurity,
It comes from my bedroom.

I quickly leave the house,
With tears running down my face,
Thinking to myself,
Why God...why?

I simply cannot stand this.
It is far too unbearable.
I head towards the bridge,
looking down at the water,
thinking to myself,
'This is it'

I stand on the rail,
as cars pass behind me.
I take a deep breath,
reminising my past,
I fall off the rail.

As I am falling,
I feel darkness all around me,
I hear a cold and evil laugh,
I do not deserve this,
for I was a good person.
I think nothing except,
Why God...why?



More than 32,000 people in the USA die by suicide. It is our country's eighth leading cause of death. This poem was wrote to show that suicide can lead to eternal darkness in Hell, even if you are a good person. If you or someone you know suffer from depression and are having thoughts of attempting suicide, please seek help.

It does not have to end. Live your life.

- Jon