Why Me Of All People? Poem by Oduetse Gabonnwe

You are looking for comfort from me;
I sit and wonder if your love is true
I see you crying; Inside I know I'm dying
I pretend not to see your tears
And not to see you’re hurting
No one to listen or even to talk to you about your problems

Recalling memories of how we used to be through and through
The things you ask of me and I do without asking for anything about them
We’ve had our good memories and like I said before
Memories I'd never forget and will always be the best thing I’ve ever had

I know you are hurting and it looks like nobody cares
The pain you feel and the anger of feeling abandoned is eating you up
And you feel like the problems you have will never go away
Wondering who 'loves you' and why do people around you turn their back on you
You can’t even explain how you feel inside because you feel lonely
No friends, no family and no one to talk to because you have no one to trust

I love you and I will never turn against you
I wish I could take away your pain
But it is something from within that cannot be moved to the next person
You’ll have to be strong and fight for what you believe in

I know you don’t have happiness within you
And you feel like the life you live is not the life you chose
But what I can tell you is that you are the best
And not everyone can pull through what you overcame.

I hope one day things will work out for you
And you’ll be happy again
You feel so tense and you pray for better days.
Everything seems to be messed up
You can’t get answers to your questions
You can’t even sleep at night and feel like nobody cares about you
Thought of taking your life keep on coming
You always ask yourself:
What is it that you have to change to live the life you want?

Understanding means nothing to you
It’s time you really know who is you really are!