Will I Always Be This Way? Poem by Crimson Haze

Slipping in and out blackness becoming my light.
Fog filling the cracks of what used to be my life.
The blinding essence evacuating my soul.
Leave me with the burning feeling; I will never again be whole.
The soft sweet air brushing against my warm lips.
The life I once had will soon be taken.
I pray it not to end, if only I could start over.
I feel it closing in, as if I were being pulled closer.
The sounds of unknown beings whispering around me.
What was once a dream is becoming my reality.
The air once soft and tender becomes hard and cold.
Believing someone would save me, but could anyone ever want me.
Hope escapes my mind leaving me hollow inside.
I feel their arms around me coming to fulfill my nightmare.
I close my eyes unable to watch what’s coming.
But these arms, I imagined would be cold I thought would be like stone.
A soft blissful caress covers my body.
Forcing my eyes to open I only see you around me.
The night no longer cold the wind no longer harsh.
The nightmares have now ended.
You have come to bring me back from this dark endless night.
The only words I can think of are ones I will never say.
this horrid night now becomes a beautiful day.