Without Guidance Poem by Anthony Viggiano

To have such an existence
Where you don't understand
The things that go through your head
Or the emotions you feel
And the ones you lack
Looking at a day
Without anticipation
For what it has in store for you

It's been a long time
Since I was sincerely excited
For something in my life
I mean
I do feel it
Every now and again
But it usually just withers away
With each passing hour
Then it just becomes like everything else

I don't aspire to work on social skills
To work on my eating habits
Having a striving notion to become something useful
Instead of an individual
Who does literally nothing with their existence
Aside from only
Existing
Nothing beneficial to the ones I love
Nothing beneficial to ones who enjoy my presence
I do nothing
But exist.


I can't remember when the last time I cared was
It's been such a long time
It's affected so much
I mean
I'm happy
I don't dwell on problems
My stress doesn't fluctuate
To the worse

But ultimately
I should stress
I should care
There's things I can't do
Unless I care enough to do them
Then the things I care about
Will guide me
To my dreams I once had
I once aspired to reach
Because this whole
Not caring thing
Is getting old
But it's been such a long time
Such a huge part of my life
What if I feel empty without it
Even more empty than I feel now

Who knows
Because I sure don't
And I don't think anyone else does
Since its personal turmoil
All I can do is wait
And see
Where a life
Without Guidance
Takes me.