Wondering Poem by Timothy Hector

I Sit here alone thinking real hard
about the lucky draw of my cards
i found you in a real time of need
a good friend i found, a true friend indeed

But lately it feels like more then just that
A lot more to me as a matter of fact
Idont know how, and i dont know why
i just fell for you, so hard i could cry

its not just physical its emotional to
its not like all i want is to....
im not like that and to be pretty straight
i havent thought about us in that way

i enjoy your company and supporting nature
though i fear i may be putting in danger
our friendship by getting this out
i wish i knew how you felt without a doubt

Though i know its pointless coz you are to young
i just want the chance to hold you and say hun
how was your day? Did you have much fun?
but when we get close, you lock up and run

but you know what i mean, all jokes aside
its taken a lot for me to swallow me pride
and get all this out on paper and print
i just wish you would dropp me a hint
as to how you feel about all of these scripts
not knowing is like taking a hit

to the face on a cold winter day
why is it so hard for you to say
one way or the other is all i ask for
its so hard not knowing anything at all

i know you say that you dont know
all i want is a true blue, fair go
i bear my heart and soul for you
i just wish i knew what to do

sometimes i wanna runaway from it all
but i that would just make me a fool
i would miss you to much, i need you around
to keep my feet flat on the ground

because i wander off the paths in my life
you help me keep direction and my sight
on the difference between wants and needs
funny how you are both to me..