Kar Chun

Rookie (Sept 10th 1992 / Belize)

Year One - Poem by Kar Chun

I sit here and look at myself
I’m no longer a lil girl
I grew up and fast
I am now more mature
But with you gone, I feel lost
If you could only see
If you could only know
Know the pain that you caused
You hurt us so much
I hated you for doing this
I hated you with my whole heart

I even convinced myself
That it’s better without you
But I lied to myself
Nothing would be as easy
Everything seem like torment
Everyday that goes by seemed harder
And without you it hurts
I still can’t believe it
Can’t believe you did what you did

You hurt mom’s heart so much
She even questioned if you really cared
The question haunted me for days
I myself couldn’t believe it
But 2 years have gone
They went by so quickly
Barely anyone knew how much time went
I still haven’t gotten the courage
The courage to face you

Just thinking bout you hurts me
I think about how things wud be
How life wud be if you were here
But I guess all I can do is wonder
You’re gone but I will see you again
That you can count on
My love for you had almost died
But with help I learned you were weak
I used to think that crying meant I was too
But truth is crying relieved me
Tears ran down for so many nights that
I thought that I wudn’t be able to cry
But I saw ur picture and the pain
The pain was there again

At this point my heart is racing
My mind is wondering
I feel so lost and confused
I still cant say why
I am not sure why I feel this way
The pain is killing me inside
I am not sure at this point
Wat to do or wat to say! ! !
Life is getting harder day by day
My life is not as it was before
Now I gotta make my own decisions
Now I gotta learn to stand on my own
I doubt any1 could compare to wat I feel

You meant a lot to me
But you didn’t know that
You hurt us so much
It almost felt like...
Like you didn’t care...
I know that’s a lie now
But the pain you felt is nothing
Nothing compared to mines
You now feel nothing
But the pain I have is here
It sinks into my heart and...
The things I wud want to do.
But I’m head strong so I won’t
I promised I wudn’t....
To dis day I still rise above you

No worries doh, we will meet
And when that happens
I will enjoy my world wit you
And no one would be able to take you away
I love you so much daddy.

Comments about Year One by Kar Chun

There is no comment submitted by members..

Read this poem in other languages

This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.

I would like to translate this poem »

word flags

What do you think this poem is about?

Poem Submitted: Monday, February 8, 2010

[Report Error]