Yielding Poem by Reylan Loberternos

I lament the day of my first attempt
When all I wanted was just to snoop and try
And eventually made myself truly deserving of contempt
When I became vindictive and callous to everyone’s eye

Regret was by no means a cure
Nor were alibis I unreasonably used for defense
I miss the day when I once was innocent and pure
But all this dreaming won’t even make any sense

As I have gone beyond the threshold of insanity
When I chose curiosity over rectitude
And thought that decadence would be better than mediocrity
Now I experience this excruciating solitude

Long before have I fought this endless battle
Trying to vigorously fight for whatever is left
How could I ever overcome this hopeless struggle
As my worst enemy turned out to be myself

Please free me from these obdurate shadows
Or at least release me from this horrid clasp
Dodge my soul from these guilty arrows
Don’t leave me to sin, Oh this I ask

Will I find the answer to this infinite question
Shall I continue to face this problem and strive
When all that’s left is His promised affection
I’d ask myself, “Will I survive? ”

Hope, faith, and love keep me afloat in this evil world
As I do my best to make this rather late amend
Bowing with utmost humility to His mighty word
For a new beginning to a righteous end

(May 11,2004)