You Poem by Tuna Fish

I miss science when we were lab partners
None of this pain had even seemed possible
I never thought that I would ever love you
Or like you in that way even
You were just the kid everyone thought was weird
The one that I secretly thought was pretty cool

I miss second period art class a year later
We always sat together until we all got moved
We were too noisy, all us friends
But we still snuck to talk
The teacher hadn't stopped our laughs
Still at this time I couldn't imagine us together

Then later in the semester I found a note in my locker
I was curious I admit, though I was told it might happen
I open the crinkled paper and read what you had wrote
The paper had been unfolded many times it seemed
Maybe to double check what had been written
Or maybe to rethink the whole thing many times
But there written on a note that I still have
Were the words that asked me out
You asked me out, I was amazed
You liked me, it was hard to believe
And secretly
Oh so secretly I liked you back
I wouldn't admit it at the time

I miss the weeks that went by as I wondered
What should I do?
Should I say yes to you?
Seemed you felt forgotten, for you then sent a necklace
It was simple and made of thread but you gave it to me
I felt special to receive it
But I still never gave you an answer

I miss gym class where the answer was finally given
I told my friend that I wouldn't go out with you
Unless you asked me out in person, not on paper
I thought you wouldn't do it
But as my friend went to tell you I blushed the deepest red
And it went even deeper when you came my way
But through my shyness and blushing
I was able to say yes and I was happy
Unbelievably, undeniably, unthinkably happy

I miss the way I was always smiling
Because I knew I had you
I was always happy which had never happened before
It was simply amazing
The way I felt around you was unexplainable
But it didn't last, never does

The day finally came when you disappeared
Where did you go or do I wanna know?
I wish I didn't know, ignorance is bliss they say
A week of confusion went by
All accompanied by rumors
The rumors made me feel sick
The rumors that were all true
Then came the questions
Why am I so dumb? Is there something wrong with me?
No there isn't but I couldn't help thinking there was

For weeks I felt a hole in my life
You weren't there anymore
Not just not in my life but not at school
I had to find out everything from someone else
And I haven't even spoke to you since that day
This seemed to make it worse
I was hurt and it seemed the world was ending

Then came the time I realized it wasn't
I was tired of pitying myself I had to let go
Let go of this broken heart
I had to stitch it up myself, for no one else would
No one else could
Though my heart will never be the same
It is functioning the best it possibly can

I still have all your notes
But now they no longer hurt me