You Amaze Me Poem by RIC BASTASA

here you come again
drunk always and always drunk as ever
vomiting your life away in every minute
you let yourself wasted on the floor
and on the sink where all dirt take
their proper place

when you wake up i feel sleepy
all the pity i have for you
taking seriously what the university never taught you
failure from being true to the words
of the jesuits

honesty is the best policy
be honest when others are not

college was your idealism
accolades and honors you reap
and then you were thrown to the world
where the dog eats another dog
where your poetry does not serve any purpose at all

then the tall building where you live collapsed
you are inside it
you have no lies, you do not live in lies to cover you
at least to protect you for the meantime
that the world is not yet changed
you are helpless like the rat caught in a trap
the cheese is even small as a crap
and you cannot take it

this deception this illusion of what is good
and what is bad of what is true and what are lies
what to do in the midst of this interplay
between darkness and light
you have not fully learned
the gray area where i live
this in-between where most of us thrive

you amaze me with your death
there are no flowers and there will be no eulogy fit for you
the idealist, top of the class