Inside I feel a silent roar that builds up more and more..
In my heart I contain this urge that is trying to emerge..
I feel it swell up in me, inside of me, I try to scream it away silently..
Those eyes filled with anger, sorrow, fear and confusion
Can you see the heavy weight
Inside those eyes there is no illusion
Can you see the horrors of what they are afraid
I've seen more of you dissapear than I ever got to know..
Your mood swings from high to so sadly low..
Feeling so lucky when I catch you being glad..
But sometimes it seems that my presence is enough to get you mad..
It's a hard beating, hard beating
they got this time..
It's a hard feeling, hard feeling
I did this crime..
Into the darkness the feelings sway
For they prolonged its stay
As these feelings have gotten deep
It has gotten harder to catch my sleep..
With you on that side..
With me on this side..
It's the gab between you and me..
As the night unfolds the hours tick by
The world sleeps but why can't I?
I wonder how it is this sort of thing has come to be
And are there more who toss and turn just like me..
Today I heard the only verdict you could possibly find,
That my words are nothing but the subjectivity of my own diseased mind..
You see me as the catalyst of all the dark things you did,
For I bring out sheer darkness in the heart of every soul I mingle with..
I've settled down, bought a house and soon someone calles me dad
I have to walk the dog, go to work and I'm not feeling sad
Lived my life free and done what I wanted done
Reach my goals and now I've settled down
The fierceness of this immortal thought..
Yet another try to escape this grand scheme that bounds my life..
For I've been knocking the doors of dreams lately, but without results..