Samantha White

I hate you because you're taking over me,
but I love you 'cause you're making me the girl I want to be.
Why do I love you when all you do is put me down?
Making me starve 'till I fit into the smallest gown.
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Before now I had never really thought about my weight,
but now the scale is my worst enemy.
Food is a thing I have begun to hate;
I can't ever be thin enough.
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Spinning, swirling, lost in confusion,
not even knowing what I am thinking.
Falling, crying, bleeding, dying,
Into this pit of depression I'm slowly sinking.
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No one understands the perfection I seek,
the reflection I see everyday.
No one hears the words I speak,
my fear of how much I weigh.
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O Ana, my angel,
lead me to perfection.
Please help me to no longer,
Fear my reflection.
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All these voices in my head,
Please make them stop I wish I was dead.
The beat of my black heart is slowly ceasing;
my will to live is slowly decreasing.
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Hiding behind laughs, smiles, and happiness,
Her bright blue eyes are filled with pain and fright.
But at first glance no one would ever guess,
the great battle she is trying to fight.
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Sitting in the rain with my head on your shoulder,
your arm around me spreading warmth through my whole body,
Now that you are gone will you remember me?
Or am I just some memory you will put aside?
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Why can't you understand?
Why can't you see?
I need you forever,
here with me.
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Every time I hear your voice,
my heart beats just a little faster.
Whenever I am sad or lonely,
I know you’ll always be there.
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Do you have any idea what you do to me?
How I feel when I see you?
I was wondering if you might possibly
feel something for me too.
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You were just another average guy when I first met you,
but now you are so much more.
You are the cause of my pain; yet every time I hear your voice I become happy,
Please help me to understand how you do this to me.
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Though I have just met you,
I feel I have known you longer.
I have never felt like this so fast before,
and it kind of scares me.
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Friendship is a very valuable thing;
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As I lay in my bed with my thoughts spinning,
I feel so helpless and lost.
In my head is a fight for life or a new beginning,
and if I choose death it will be at my cost.
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Hiding all my pain and confusion,
behind laughs and smiles.
But really I am searching for a solution,
to get me through this darkness.
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I was happy my life was fine,
I almost never complained.
Until one day my whole world fell apart,
though I don't understand all this pain.
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Someday my love for you will fade,
and I will find someone new.
Someday I will no longer be afraid,
Afraid of forgetting you.
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Sitting in the moonlight with your arms around me,
keeping me safe and free from harm.
Your eyes shine with your deep love for me;
your hands hold mine to keep them warm.
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Her eyes so full of hope and light
now turn so dark no longer bright.
Her smiling lips and perfect soul,
No longer exist, her heart he stole.
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