skitzophrenic lost Poems

So many long days
That I can't remember
So many hard nights
That lasted forever
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Today has changed me
I realize your gone forever
I won't forget this
But will I regret this?
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Where does your God go,
When you need him the most.
Does he hide in the clouds?
Or reach out and come close?
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Are you monster? Or just make believe?
Is it fate I’ve gone blind? Or is this what I see?
You can’t be real/ only I live in me
But when I talk/ you always answer
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Lets close our eyes forever
We can drift away in space
I'll hold your hand in mine
And we'll find our special place
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Some how time goes on
But I feel trapped in the past
No matter what I do I can't be free
I prayed to god to end this lie
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I'm drunk,
But that's no surprise
A little alcohol,
Makes you feel alive
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I hope you feel like me one day
I hope it eats away at you
I hope it makes you go insane
I hope you want to bleed
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Everyday when I wake up
I feel like things will change
Like this dark cloud will leave
And this world will be sane
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Every time I hear your voice
I keep thinking things will change
My friends told me to lose hope
But I don't want to go on another day
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