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I am just hanging on to the tail of a beast, not the head of the demon.
Choice has only given me two options
I want to let go, , I do,
I speak to the walls around me; I tell them who I am
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It begins..
Waking with a heart beat I can hear,
I’m alive.
I know what today shall be.
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Even the gloomy nights of death hold fine secrets
The key?
Delve into the reflection of the heart
Express it with a bursting force
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I find it awfully hard to express myself trough words.
Words are limited.
They can’t taste a feeling or smell the hart.
So I prefer to use imagination.
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Lord, you kept my soul from the pit of hell.
Once secure, I thought I would never slip.
When you withdrew your spirit, I fumbled.
But I place my trust in you, the almighty g-d
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Living the dream of truth,
Praying for truth of the dream,
Knowing it’s not what it seems.
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Young naked sheep scatter in schools of fools.
This is all unknown at the time of the first cage.

Run… Where? ..Don’t stop.
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Look..
Inside my pupils, , see a hole
A stab from the spade
, A dug up soul.
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My soul has moved from the calm waters of desire,
Up to and into the cave of love that shoots hot flames,
A flame trying to escape its wick.
My soul Ready to expire.
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As they took terns speaking of pain
As they took pleasure in the pasts
As they smiled, as they cried,
Silence spoke at last
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I know what I saw when I was on the silver bench of death
I know what I saw with the eyes of my heart.
I saw connection,
Strings pulling people.
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I am now sitting outside
The people pass me by
Look at me with wide eyes
Whisper with voices too loud
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I remember seeing him for the first time-
He was sitting hunch backed, he was smoking, He was thinking,
I spoke to him and realized he was not thinking, he was dreaming
When his voice hit my ear, I had to close my eyes
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oh, you cant relate to my life
my life is simple
my life is good
i wish i could tell you what its like on the other side
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I recall when I was changing
When new insights aroused me
Sharing lucidity surprised my mind
And the fluency of my thoughts shook
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