Drifting away to nothingness..
In failure, I have succumbed..
And i count the passing moments..
Wondering who i have become...
...
Isolation accompanies me,
whispering melodically in my ear..
Confusion is mocking me,
with its mirthless smile, it stands near..
...
Here i sit, the end in front of my eyes..
The fears inside me will release me at last..
And become a dark reality,
engulfing my mind, my body, my soul..
...
Concealing between life and death,
wondering, as the next might be the culminating breath,
saddle of life getting thicker, as everyday seems like a year..
Dark clouds mounting bigger,
...
Numb..
Drifting away to nothingness..
In failure, I have succumbed..
And i count the passing moments..
Wondering who i have become...
My soul, lost to ambilvalence..
Confused, I watch it fade..
In the end, it claims my innocence..
Now i'm alone, afraid and betrayed..
I am becoming less of what i was..
So much less than what i could be..
Drowning in my fear of failure..
In my attempt to wade the sea..
Should I allow myself to slip away..?
Free from worry of regret..?
Could I allow myself to fade..?
And take the risk that you'll forget..?
I'm wondering how I might get back again..
To the place I started from..
The roads I see are all dead ends..
And this life has become NUMB..