JayJay Maybank

Most important love,
Like it's the only thing you know at the end of the day all this.
Means nothing.
This is a page.
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All my life I have been
On the out looking in
Never had a bright side
Afraid to show my dark side
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Those of us in uniform
A family does it make
Part is our commitment
And the oath that we do take
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She stares at her ceiling once again with a hundred thoughts
'Maybe he knows who I am, probably not'
She walks down the hall with her head down low, scared to meet his eyes
Even when she hears his voice she's swarmed with butterflies
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You were my friend then: now almost stronger!
Our friendship appeared once very glorious;
What happened meantime, gives me great anger;
Our friendship no longer remains serious.
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You know it's crazy, 'cause nights like this
Would start out with a little private party
You sneak me into your mom's house
I know I might spill my drink, but
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Teird of living in the homeless house,
Sitting in this empty chair,
Breathing this lonely air,
Accompanied by these dreadful tears,
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When years passed away,
With no one dear,
The eyes filled with tears,
And the heart with fear.....
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I'll be lost inside my head
Bad thoughts 'til 4 a.m.
Then I'll try to sleep
And I can't tell anyone
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The seasons come and go like thoughts of you
Like a wave returning to the sea into the blue
They change but in a cycle that I can't lose
Each is painful but delightful to live through
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There's a war inside my head
Sometimes I wish that I was dead, I'm broken

So I call this therapist
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She's imperfect, but she tries
She is good, but she lies
She is hard on herself
She is broken and won't ask for help
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Sittin' in a parked car
We don't even fight no more
We don't even touch no more
She used to be my girlfriend
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Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
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Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you

And everything you do
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I wanna come home to roses
And dirty little notes on Post-its
And when my hair starts turning gray
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I used to shut my door while my mother screamed in the kitchen
I'd turn the music up, get high and try not to listen
To every little fight, 'cause neither one was right
I swore I'd never be like them
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She walked into the room and now my heart has been stolen
She took me back in time to when I was unbroken
Now she's all I want
And I knew it from the very first moment
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… I close my eyes and I can see
The world that's waiting up for me
That I call my own
Through the dark, through the door
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Wanna believe, wanna believe
That you don't have a bad bone in your body
But the bruises on your ego make you go wild, wild, wild, yeah
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