The Doctor Said Poem by JayJay Maybank

I'll be lost inside my head
Bad thoughts 'til 4 a.m.
Then I'll try to sleep
And I can't tell anyone
I'm so scared they'll get up and run
So I don't speak

And oh, I miss when we were younger
The days were so much more fun
Weren't they?
Oh, I book a new appointment
It's another disappointment
They're all the exact, same, same

When the doctor says I'm fine
One in the morning, one at night
These pills will help you remember how to smile
But what does he know?
Because I feel so alone
And Mom and Dad both tell me I'm alright
'Cause the doctor said you're fine

My mind can lie to me
They all say it's anxiety
But I think it's me
Now I've lost so many years
My pillow's a tissue for my tears
But you never see

And now, I can't even eat my dinner
Mom says I'm getting thinner
Am I?
Oh, I book a new appointment
Yet another disappointment
They're all the exact, same, same

When the doctor says I'm fine
One in the morning, one in the night
These pills will help you remember how to smile
But what does he know?
Because I feel so alone
And Mom and Dad both tell me I'm alright
'Cause the doctor said you're fine

But he doesn't care about me
He'll just go home to his family
Why does no one see?
I'm not the girl I wish that I could be

'Cause the doctor said I'm fine
One in the morning, one in the night
These pills will help you remember how to smile
But what does he know?
Because I feel so alone
And Mom and Dad both tell me I'm alright
'Cause the doctor said I'm fine