Hari Msonda

Beneath me, I could feel it.
Such a rush, the adrenaline drowns
the capillaries of my cadaver.
Cold, rigid, moist, cobblestone.
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You see,
I waited. I waited for you.
Just for you.
Not because I was searching,
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I always smile.
Yes!
I always find the joy.
My god, I hate that word.
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Moments changed in flashes
Innocence stolen so easily
How could I be so foolish
So naive, innocent
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Anxiety hitting you every corner
adrenaline rushing through your blood
A craving so deep you can't hold it
Heart beating too fast as if a heart attack
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I wondered long before
I named it broken.

My soul calls for you
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When do you find the time?

When do you breathe
between forced exhaustion
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As you ruthlessly fired at my ego,
In a furnace, sweat dripping down our faces.
You forgot that I was a mindless creation,
That unfortunately suffers at the expense of people like you.
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Twenty-eight minutes at Bay 2
Freezing my last fiber
Succumbing to the thrill of all the chills
Running rampant up and down my fragile spine.
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Woke up bound today
woke up screaming.
I almost smiled today!
but with the grim reaper,
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It's ludicrous how quickly you quickly forget
the nothing you once were
and how like sound,
you move so instantaneously in acknowledging
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I hear you've been looking for me—
scraping your knees
against the pavements of hell
just to reach me.
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