the fat sun's slowly setting
yeah and they all talk of merry
was i always like this?
and god...new year eve's coming... more »
yeah..it is christmas eve...
blessed are the hearts that are joyful tonight
whose smiles shine so bright
blessed are those who feel thankful and glad... more »
A place of confinement and restraint...
It's where you end up when you neither belong to heaven or hell
floating through timeless space...in a motion
so...exhausting...straining...tormenting...... more »
oh yes your love
and yes your love...
it left me broken hearted and jobless
took away all my chances of finding... more »
with all these filth
spewing out of me
how do you think will i be
of any good to you or to anyone?... more »
she's gripping at the doorknob..
she's about to turn it to finally step out
the black lady grabs her by the arm
her face wretched with hate and pain... more »
why did you show me much love...
will you be able to holdout forever?
can you promise not to change?
will you swear never to leave?... more »
Throw your emotions unto the sea
Let the tides wash them away
Away untill you're free
feel the wind drying up those tears... more »
I don't know myself anymore
The words I say...i swear they're true
But in the morning...the meaning's gone
I feel confused...who said that?... more »
please stop the weeping!
i can hear it I can hear it! ! !
though it's muffled it echoes
i can't bear this... more »
the foul stench of your putrid flesh
haunting me even in my little death
You were there lounging on deathbed
The hideous smell of rotten eggs... more »
this blade and my firm grip
i pressed against my wrist
a little harder this time...
just as i was about to glide it... more »
Do you know how much I fear you?
That I dread the very thought of being near you?
That I die just thinking of gazing into those eyes I adore?
Do you know how much it scares me to see... more »
Pretending to be happy...when you're not
Speaking in a gay tone when all you really wanna do is sigh
Holding up that high pitch...and giggling alot
How can you not see?... more »
You left without a word...
Not even a glance...
I found a chance to let you go
and you never came back...still not a word... more »
I tried to be a true one for you...
but like the turle and the scorpion
you played the second and stung me not once... more »
empty...void......night after night
day after day...darkness...fright...
a living carcass, restless...pointless
Blinded, scarred...falling wingless... more »
Crash and Burn
Why do you wish to die?
can't get hold of your dreams?
can't feel loved?... more »
Now that I am sobered
I am trhinking...
what was i thinking last night?
were they even called for?... more »
If you think your life is ending...
Why not take a look at mine...
it's long been ending
i've been cutting... more »
Though my thoughts and words are not enough
to make you see
to make you feel
to cheer you up... more »
If you would only hold me
take my hand and walk with me...
we'll both find our way
through these forest lost and darkened... more »
It began as a casual dream
Fully involved in it
sudden twist of terror... more »
come on let there be no end
to all this sick bickering... more »
I'm walkin away
from all the troubles in my life...
the past that never seems to die
the present that makes me wish to die... more »
I feel careless...i feel numb...
This hopelesness that has been lurking
Has finally made it's way inside me
Like a nightmare of a clairvuoyant inkling... more »
when thoughts of uncertainty and indifference rushes in
what must one do? ...must one give up...must one give in?
plagued by questions about loving and love
sometimes everything just blurrs all ...... more »
to fight for all the wrong reasons
to rationalize everything
love is the sole spring
inspiring, motivating, moving... more »
death couldn't possibly be worse than life
i've lived long enough to know
i've sensed deep enough to taste
death is freedom...... more »
lurked in darkness til all be said
uttered love in words conveyed
One starless night as cold as death
vowed and wed thy soul encased... more »
shattered glasses everywhere
shameful blood spilled all over
I faint, i stumble, i fall
blinding tears and alcohol... more »
when you find yourself alone
if he takes with him your lullaby song
that man who is your home
your body, heart and soul he own... more »
In the morning i feel like vanishing
with all the fragments of my undoing
it scares me to feel the price..
the price i will be paying..... more »
Yeah yeah you got me smokin two packs a day!
I'm sure my lungs are now charcoaled gray! (*lights another stick)
At night i get all shitfaced i drown my tears away
can't believe this mess you put ...... more »
It's over and i have nothing more to say
I've let go of what has been done...
everything we despised has gone away
we were more of God's disaster... more »
I see your family pictures...
you are one happy family indeed
i imagine the occasions you have...
must be really heart warming...... more »
the mere sound of your voice
lifts me up
dispersing the dark clouds
in an instant.... more »
If only i'd understand your true intent...
but with a broken trust, was it all meant?
I always think we'd make it to the end
started believing, tried to comprehend
but here you are flaunting your escapades
completely forgotten I watched love fades
broken trust this heart will never mend
all these pain wielded inside my head....
It's Christmas eve
and I'm seated on this same old chair
in front of this same old tube
I'm a pathetic little twig
left on a christmas tree lot
on a very merry christmas eve
It happens to everyone
Oh yes it does...maybe it does..
It must...or could i be the only one?