Tonight Poem by maya crisol

Tonight...
I never felt this lonely
yet i couldn't even cry a tear
for whom
for what
i could not remember
i am too numb and hardened
there is nothing else here that matter
in my being there is only this sadness
it casts me away
throws me off against every corner
this darkness that embraces my soul
the kind that makes you shiver
so cold and unrelenting
so cruel and undescerning
i am alone
without love
without touch
without life
my soul screams in whispers
my thoughts break in silence
my tears trapped within
these tightly shut eyes!

I sit alone in this dark room
once in awhile glancing up the moon
waiting for some answers
looking out for signs
Is there hope?
Is there love?
Is there life?
Is there God?
Will he ever keep me?
Does he even know me?
Will he ever see me?
Speak of life
show me love
make me hope
bring me light
help me make it
through tonight.