Natalie Nicole Story

there's a split inside of me
part of me wants to fight and kick and scream and throw you outside
but the winning majority seems to appreciate letting you come in and hide
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...no...
we agreed this wouldn't happen
you touch me anyway
you touch yourself
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I'm sorry dear...to disappoint you
...I'm sorry I didn't live
...I'm sorry
please know I love you
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..it was better...
at least it felt like so...
for but a moment
in never present time
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Pebbles
under my feet
in between my toes
I wiggle them
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There you are…again
dreamlike
rhythmic
rinding
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Ahk Ahk
Ick Ick
Get this sick away from me
Putrid and horrid
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I love you
no, I love the way I see around you
I love how I feel around you.
I love how I melt around you.
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patiently love
patiently shove?
ehm, no
tickled edges of my center
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A moment of peace
a time of privacy
lapping up the luxury
thank you my Lord
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I have been shown my open door

Soon I will leave
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I am not afraid oh my Lord
Guide me…use me
your, this, my, willing vessel
move me, you, through me
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disarm you with a smile
let's you into
never leave you wild
let's you into me
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Mmmhmm
yeps.
*selah*
(that's a pause...for those who don't know.)
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...the inspiration came
the focus changed
the prayer said
the Love fed
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for opening their hearts
eyes wide open
instead
seeing your love
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silence & sanctitude
flourish in the depth of the soul
that you've fed & watered
and made pure
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Thank you
for leading
me to this freedom
showing me the choice
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Thank you...
for the beautiful rain
for the drops
of cleansing bliss
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fell into my hand today
as I was meditating by the way
it brought to mind
the visions
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