Natalie Nicole Story

there's a split inside of me
part of me wants to fight and kick and scream and throw you outside
but the winning majority seems to appreciate letting you come in and hide
...

...no...
we agreed this wouldn't happen
you touch me anyway
you touch yourself
...

I'm sorry dear...to disappoint you
...I'm sorry I didn't live
...I'm sorry
please know I love you
...

..it was better...
at least it felt like so...
for but a moment
in never present time
...

Pebbles
under my feet
in between my toes
I wiggle them
...

A moment of peace
a time of privacy
lapping up the luxury
thank you my Lord
...

I love you
no, I love the way I see around you
I love how I feel around you.
I love how I melt around you.
...

patiently love
patiently shove?
ehm, no
tickled edges of my center
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I thought this would get easier
I've only known you a while
not more than a nano second
in the grand scheme's hooray
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Lord I don't know what to do
I'm torn every which way
each possibility has good reasons
each lending to a particular season
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Dream it
dream it
feel it
need it
...

drip drip drip
ick ick ick
trickle sickle sick
slide slip oogh
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I love you Lord
You have done so much for me
Thank you Lord
from the depths of my soul
...

disarm you with a smile
let's you into
never leave you wild
let's you into me
...

Mmmhmm
yeps.
*selah*
(that's a pause...for those who don't know.)
...

...the inspiration came
the focus changed
the prayer said
the Love fed
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for opening their hearts
eyes wide open
instead
seeing your love
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silence & sanctitude
flourish in the depth of the soul
that you've fed & watered
and made pure
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Thank you
for leading
me to this freedom
showing me the choice
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Thank you...
for the beautiful rain
for the drops
of cleansing bliss
...