nicola forbes

Into the night the spirit stumbles
out of the ears the sound departs
into oblivion goes the being
teardrops of a broken heart.
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I was broken,
I tried so hard to fix myself
but the mends kept slipping
so I fixed them again.
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How many tears can bleed from one eye?
I cant seem to count them,
as hard as I try.
How many years will it take them to dry?
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Did you forget you loved me as you looked into her eyes?
Did your heart not feel me dying as you felt so alive?

Could my soul not lure you as you kissed her sweet red lips?
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Why are you crying Mother
while the sun shines bright in the sky?
Why is your face aglowing
with the tears that have bled from your eyes?
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Its time to stop crying, the people say.
Its time to close the door.
But I cried again this morning
and now i'm crying some more.
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I came to say my last farewells at the hospital today
My last remaining memory of a neverending day.
They thought of me as crazy as I fingered through your rags
as I cried on tattered slippers, old worn clothes in plastic bags.
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Cherish this heart of mine as I place her hesitantly into your care,
for she does not come easy.
Be gentle with her or you may rip her tender skin
and she shall weep a mirriade of soft tears into the palm of your hand.
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Keeper of my heart i call for you now,

why are you not by my side?
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Angel of destiny - Repent! ! !
Cease spurning my hearts desire
Lay rest my weary soul.
Why do you confine us
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In the most secret place where my heart meets my mind,
where my soul and my spirit are one of a kind.
With patience a virtue, suppressing free thought,
and my only true bidding - to do what I ought.
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It hurts........

that you think I am so cold to not know your pain,
that I wouldnt feel the failure as i'm turned away again.
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I need to find a safer place to get out of this rain,
to see the blue above the grey and feel the sun again.
I know I have a lot of work that starts on the inside,
Ive got to find that hidden place my feelings like to hide.
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Where were You
When I needed your promised warmth,
the safety of your arms and the release of my pain.
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I'll not let you see any tears that may fall,
you'll think all your love has meant nothing at all.
My heart will be screaming as you walk away,
but my face will be saying 'Too bad you can't stay'
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Her wings are torn so she cannot fly,
a broken angel with a silent cry,
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As the sky clouds over and raindrops fall
expectations come to fusion
you'll not move on while the Arc Angels song
holds love in such confusion.
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Yes its hard to let go!
when the pain in your heart knows you are simply fulfilling the necessary realm.
Destroying the very thing you have sought forever,
knowing full well it will not be found again
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When it hurts..............
I'm not going to bend!
I'm not going to fall!
I'm not going to plead!
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