Axley Jade Blaze Poems

Seduced by Darkness
A slave to the dead
A walking zombie
So many loose screws in the head.
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Dream of sorrow Envision Pain Through rivers of sadness In oceans of only vain Dream of existence Then envision death And when the vision is over Tell me what do you have left? Then you have my life Next you have my soul You have my entire being, up for sale; Complete and whole All my pain All my frustration Yet, only my sickest fantasies of death and self mutilation What else you might retrieve The others gifts that are sent The confusion that knocked me down Untill further down I went The words I could never articulate The feelings I could never feel The fantasy I could never really taste And, the Reality to me that was NEVER EVER real The life I did not live For only in my derranged head The cravings I couldn't stop The cravings to finally be dead The infinite neurosis between my heart and my mind My scream to pause this movie and worse my wish to hit rewind To freeze my soul To escape my brain To run away To attempt to feel sane To wish so hard To wish so much For a brand new stroke Away from Life's touch Wishing more every day Wishing hard in every way Wish away wish I could I think I might I think I should I scream out loud And it feels so good How I feel is how you would What comes to mind Only one word should Though my intentions were only good All of my life I've felt so damned...
Misunderstood.
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He said:
'Let me touch, and everything will be okay.
And, if you let me touch you
All of your pain will fade away.'
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The man once told me:
'Take my hand, child, and everything will be okay.
And, if you let me touch you, all of your demons will fade away.'
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They choose to live,
You crave to die
You can't ever seem to
Distinguish; why?
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There was once a time,
I tried to walk the line
On the path of straight and narrow
Looking for the ideal hero
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I'm locked inside this prison
It's dark, and I feel battered
I'm caged inside this prison
Labeled a Freak—
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I got'sa bad case of mental masturbation
Can't close my mouth to stop the word regurgitation
The thoughts, they translate into this verbal sort of psychosis
While I attempt to medicate my brain with some hypnosis
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I'm feeling like the shade of Grey
Yes, today, I'm feeling Grey.
Depressed and alone,
I feel frightened, cold.
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There was once a time; there was a world with a stark, bright light
There was an era, now surpassed, but yes—for a time, things were smooth and going right.
There was a place in her brain that she nearly occupied full-time
A place where her soul was safely tucked beneath her mind
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