nicole feltes

A quiet whisper a buried secret
a heart that was broken a song left unsung
u hold your chest to hold in the pain and u cry
u cry which seems like forever and its only been minutes
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as she lay in my arms in a pool of blood
i look into her eyes all i see is my reflection
screams so loud that hurt me i relize are mine
so cold so young so everything
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two people with a future
two people with a past
secrets were like breathing
feelings were like knives
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love is a emotions full of joy and happyness
what happens when its gone or taken from you
the pain that fills the joy the emptyness filled the love
love is an emotion i live without
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people say i shine like the sun, and i brightnen the room up
some people call me cold like a winter night
people dont understand me, because i dont want them to
people want me, but they all want to use me
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i have ruined her, brought her in to slam her down
i took everything with me, i looked her in her eyes and lied
everytime i said hello i really said goodbye
you walked my way and my heart pounded like a knocking door
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R.I.P Rian (lil bro)


he is gone from this world so young so pure
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the things you said all lies
you disgust me you didnt mean anything
your i love you doesnt mean anything to me
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why do i feel this way
how come i hurt so much
why do i look at you with such pain in my eyes
when you kiss me i feel the love you have or is it had?
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the fear of death what fear, im scared of what is afterwards
im feeling it get worse as the tiredness creeps up on me
my body is getting cold, my body hurts and doesnt want to be here
the night is foggy and i walk this battle alone is someone there
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i have been ruined, thrown around like a doll
i have been stepped on, beaten untill i couldn't stand
you only know my good story but you wanted to know more
i have been ruined by the likes of all of you
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i am a puppet controlled by the likes of you
i am a puppet, cold and expressionless. Feelings, what are they?
dresses, jewelry, make up, not me. where am i? it's black
the bright light i was walking towards disappeared. where did it go.
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i remember who i am now
a beautiful figure you tried to destroy
memories were so hazy, i felt as if they were not real
i am the being who frightnened you from my smile, to my cold eyes
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Im sorry that my heart breaks that my eyes shed tears

im sorry my voice doesnt travel to your ears so you know how i feel
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