13. Poem by Nebil Elias

13, wish this was a dream
But sadly, it's real
The moment you asked for it
I didn't know how to react or feel

Not once did I expect this to happen
Never in my wildest dream that I've imagined
That you'll leave me after all these years of acquaintance
But it's me who got you to this point
I had to accept it for your satisfaction

Times when you were suffering
You were patient
Holding on to the last grip of this love
But you fall because of my actions

I had a habit that haunted me
For what reason, it came to be
Yes, I know you warned me
So now you punish me

I was so lucky that you were in my life
Despite my imperfection, you were always by my side
Through hardship and struggles, you were there to guide
Won't regret your accompany, I am glad that you were mine

You were my ride or die
For once I thought you will be my wife
Love so beautiful and kind
Ended up because of a lie

Memories of you still flash through my mind
When I go to sleep, I enter a place where I always find you
Sometimes I wish if I can stay there and be with you
Because I didn't find someone that loves me as you do
But reality hurts and I've to accept the truth

Even after all these years far apart,
You still have a place in my heart
Not just as a lover, but as a soulmate who was always my lifeguard
Just know that I still respect you and love you sweetheart